Catching moments January 29, 2010

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Yours is the first face that I saw
I think I was blind before I met you

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O Sweet mother of pearl.

It’s my second post of the year 2010! I know i know, the first post was emo nemo numo, actually it’s not even counted as a proper post ay; This would officially mark my first entry in the new year 2010!

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Am so psyched about everything despite!

Despite..

Despite!

All the moans and groans and sighs and sad faces and complaints abt upcoming ‘O’s.

previously, the lady already admitted she kinda sucked at everything. in the BEGINNING, put it bluntly-  studies. Basically, what drives me to school everyday is the harsh brutal reality that MY Os ARE ARRIVING! and and it keeps knocking at me. cannot bring myself to waste another minute not doing homework or not not pay attention in class alr despite the fact that it seems absurdly impossible to stay awake throughout lessons from 8 AM to 5PM – E-V-E-R-Y-D-A-Y

Hear me alright.

Still i get to whine and grouch okay! I haven’t been the best of student 4 years ago and to really start my engine now is quite a huge feat. For someone like me at least!

Basically just trying to convince myself k:  STUDY HARD CLAUDIA WONG. IMAGINE STANDING AND WAVING TO THE CROWD AND CRYING TEARS OF JOY WHEN YOU GET YOURSELF A SINGLE DIG hahahahahaa just try for once and the following morning when you look into the mirror it reflects everything – SUCCESS!

Reap What You Sow!

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DANCE is something to look forward too. I wanna excel in this area before leaving! Anticipating for dance concert in may/april! SO EXCITED; dancing to Tik Tok! Awesomee -beams

Though, theres some very nagging issues that have been bothering us recently. Hopefully everythings settled SOON. that SOMEONE compromises and ‘have a seat down with ya ego’. at least hear yourself first and carefully internalize what we are trying to say.

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Overall, school’s been wearing me out, but i still find a sense of comfort knowing i made it thru each day, even with a bit of accomplishment. at least i’m rest assured that i’ve done smth worth it at the end of the day.

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I NEEED TO GO CNY SHOPPING!!!!!!!!!!

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Browsing thru lookbook.nu just makes my blood rush in excitement; i am getting impatient! needa get some fresh air after next week outside -SHOPPPING! or rather splurging. heehaw :/

My week 5 of 2010 is a scary disasterrrrrrrrr: All 8 different subjects have tests coming up! 2 days each except for Monday (my only leisure time, yea I hear you alright, i sympathize)

ALAS! Good things will come in the form of REWARDS. I’m gonna end off my week of HUMONGOUS avalanche of tests on Fri where I’ll spend quality-shoppping time with Jodie (awww i miss her pretty face and everything!) ♥

Oh and as for JO, please please please with a cherry on top, get your prize money!!!!!!!! since your most likely not coming to church tmr you betterrrr get tt cus i’ll be waiting hahahaha

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I caught a few good movies in January! THE LOVELY BONES: Masterpiece. Gave me the chills every minute. that will be mostly because of the protagonist called Saoirse Ronan who’s same age as me and she is beautiful! (natural beauty is just soo rare these days) NY ILY is aite. Law Abiding Citizen is ingenious and a brilliant must-watch!

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Tmr’s caregiver-something-something-association thing! Going to wake up early morning to donate for the needy @ AMK! wish me luck. ahhhh grant me strength God, for all that i’m about to do in the weeks and months and years to come.

Indeed there’s nothing I don’t believe that won’t ever come to pass. You said it, it will definitely come true, so I will start trying and believing again. (L)

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AH YEA! Those who were unaware of my recent news – the one where on 17th Jan I got my left foot stuck under my dad’s wheels; on that fine night during the celebration of my Grandma’s chinese birthday outside a family dinner @ ‘No Signboard’ that one? Wellz, my foot’s completely healed! Thank God no fractures though a few ugly scars that i hope aren’t ’scars’ but just temporary tyre marks yes.

Thanks to MELO, DADDY(nonetheless), TWINS, BREN, CHARYLE, and esp my crazy but most amazing girls I have in school, love you guys for wanting to piggybackride so much, really helps a lot lmao ♥

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I have a history of making decisions very quickly. I have always fallen fast and without measuring risks. I have a tendency not only to see the best in everyone, but to assume that everyone is emotionally capable of reaching his highest potential. I have fallen more times than I care to count with the highest potential of the one, rather than with one self, and I have hung on to it for a long time (sometimes far too long) waiting for the one to ascend to his own greatness. Many times in it, I have been a victim of my own optimism.

— Elizabeth Gilbert

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That’s all! Hope this compensates for the month of Feb!

Yeah, most MOST HIGHLY UNLIKELY that i’d have that much time to blog and reenact everything from MY UPCOMING SWEET SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY to CNY! (left out VDAY cus …. yeah well you’d get it uh lol

-but whatevaaaaar! live my days happily, worry-free, carefree and lighthearted.

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SEND MY LOVE TO THE UNIVERSE! *

January 12, 2010

Inevitable

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After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and changing a soul. And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises. And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead… and you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. So you plant your own garden instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong and that you really do have worth… and with every goodbye, you learn.

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In life, there are things that we don’t want to happen but have to accept, things we don’t want to know but have to learn, and people we can’t live without but have to let go of.

I don’t know why we all hang on to something we know we’re better off letting go. It’s like we’re scared to lose what we don’t even really have.

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Dancing with tears through my eyes. January 1, 2010

New Year 2010 Already? gasps

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Looking at how time so swiftly passed just gives me the shivers- probably cus it marks the beginning of a new year where greater surprises are in store.

Flashbacks

This year, everything sucked. Or more like I sucked at everything. If I recall, 2009 was a year of heartache, pain, trials, sickness and death. But of course, if not for 2009, I wouldnt have emerged into this person who went thru a year of letting go, growing up, becoming stronger, more independent, wising up and moving on. I can safely say that 2009 was a breakthrough year for me. Its a huge feat for me taking into account what the hell I’ve went thru, i’m literally alive, still not crushed, not broken.

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Had a wunderful New Year’s Day celebration! As I look back on yesterday or rather the last day of the year.

It made me realize something B-I-G. It ended how everything began. And I know that I know that I know in my heart, He had planned it all for my sake again. Goodness knows how much He really loves me.

Had dinner with Jo at Aston’s @TheCathay. Met Andre and the cell groups at Parklane lan, afterwhich we walked to Esplanade to catch the fireworks -no doubt stunnning! Had an excellent time playing and talking so much throughout the night. Kinda saw the past Me in all of them, and everyone and everything still pretty much remains the same. Definitely nostalgic hehe -and a great feeling; never realized how much I’ve missed out on.

Supposedly planned to meet the twins to go Melo’s party @Goodwood Park hotel. But I figured everyone there are gonna be adult strangers so decided to be with the younger party which turned out totally not what I had expected! An amazing one indeeed, partly cus I heard Jo’s stufffzxzx. lmao! It was an honour ya! And will be kept in the dark for as long as until I cease to exist here on this earth(: Finally. Had morning breakfast with Jo, Jov and Anthony at Pp’s Macs. Reached home at 9! -slumber till 5 in the afternoon..

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Everything felt great, had been awesome.

But somehow. C’est la Vie. Its mustering the courage to accept that I have waited for nothing at all.

I guess this part of the parcel doesn’t and will never fit.

So it’s time I say farewell to this tiny piece of my life, where I’ve made up my mind to seal it tightly, to be buried away in the deepest deepest depths of my heart where it will all be forgotten because it wasn’t and was never meant to be.

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First day of January 2010! Great start? You bet.

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r.i.p.

With love.

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Rest in piece, Kao Gong.

(always remembering the nice Uncle with that smile and distinct laughter I never fail to catch from afar)

Am I late? December 30, 2009

couldn’t see.

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I’ve been blind. Too blind for God knows how long already…. too deaf, and hard of hearing, perhaps too much time on my hands, busily minding other ppl’s business but my own. Frequently, i hear ppl telling me things like “you know you are being silly, can you please please open your eyes wide and see?” and “It’s time you stop living in self-denial.” and “One day i will thank you for making the right decision” and whatnot.

What would i do when they start preaching to me? I turned a deaf ear and blind eyes to those wise words that could have saved my ass from this craphole i voluntarily dragged myself in today. What a huge grave mistake.

I swear, following my heart all this time has gotten me nowhere.

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Maybe it’s all them tumblr quotes i’ve been reading or those words from my circle of friends have been chanting to me since Day1 suddenly start replaying at the back of my head, either 1 i’m just too grateful beyond words can say, even though I guess I might be a little too late for undoing things right now..sad but true reality hits me hard and i got to face the blow sooner or later.

Just when I got enlightened and finally saw the light, the final blow hits me hard. Everything dissipated. Gone like the wind. How am I supposed to stop doing anything that which makes everyone feel happy. Yet I know I just cant stand by the sidewalk watching everything fade and everything gained while I dont get a piece of the steak.

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I just wanna feel safe with someone… to not always be wondering how he feels about me, to not always be waiting for him to walk away, to not always be wishing he would love me back. I needa be able to trust a man like you who will be there for me for the right reasons, because i know you cared enough to be there.

But how????????

Guess i’m screwed, For now. at least thats what i try to convince myself it is from today on.

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“It’s just that…I just think that some things are meant to be broken. Imperfect. Chaotic. It’s the universe’s way of providing contrast, you know? There have to be a few holes in the road. It’s how life is.”

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— Sarah Dessen

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know it’s too late already. always has been.

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Maybe it’s true that we don’t know what we’ve got until we’ve lost it.

But maybe it’s also true that we don’t know we are missing until we find it.

I do not want just a piece of you and a piece of your life. Even if you were able – which you are not – to give me the biggest piece, that is not what I want. I want all of you and every part of you.

Dreamwalker December 23, 2009

A V A T A R

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Everyone should watch this! Avatar’s toooooo good for <10 bucks!!!!! Damn, lack of words to describe this muvee. Masterpiece, perfection. At first glance of the trailer, I appeared totally disinterested and it actually looked kinda stupid. After 161 mins in the cinemas with my oversized 3D goggles(i’d like to think im wearing goggles instead of spectacles,it sounds kewler) I was completely awestruck or more like lovestruck with the film and its characters!! Headiest ride/exprerience in the theatres ever, absolutely loved every moment of it!

let’s seee.. the character in Avatar…

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Is sizzling hott. Erotic.. (lol Mike A.!)

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Did a whole lot of shopping these days. Walked around shopped around Far East and Orchard and had Soba So Good at Paragon with Charyle and her friend Mike. Dang, no wunder they named it Soba So Good. Never thought it would be literally that good! Was nice meeting him and of course finally seeing my sister after soo long! *You became thin, lady! what happened? Prasad didnt do a goood job!! Jeez.

Finally did some cam-whoring too, all them pics are up in fb though!^^ lazy upload yay. Met daddy and mel and Paramajothi at 313. Then headed off to watch Avatar which i already described its magnificence to you^^

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Today’s 23rd and happy ani to my dearest Veeenus Weee Shin Wiii, I love you for being so understanding and patient and nice and lovely to me all this time. And went shopping with me for so long despite falling sick and feeling uneasy! Love you for everything!

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Yea so great, I spent another amount of cash on Cotton On. I realized to my horror and utter amazement, swiping my card to purchase things I like (i.e. clothes,shoes,bags well mostly clothes) brings me great pleasure and satisfaction!!!! diee.. even after i got a new bag and clothes from Dad which he bought at Bangkok i still bought more or less the same stuffff. I’m a horrible spendthrift!!! :$

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I want to catch Avatar one more time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And tmr’s Xmas Eve! Wunder where I’d be, cus i’ve no plans. This is just greatttttt

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Alright, gotta adios~ fer now. Be right back after Xmas. Perhaps.. after New Year’s

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CIAO

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I see you….

I see you
Walking through a dream
I see you
My light in darkness breathing hope of new life
Now I live through you and you through me
Enchanting
I pray in my heart that this dream never ends
I see me through your eyes

Living through life flying high
Your life shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
I live through your love
You teach me how to see

All that’s beautiful
My senses touch your word I never pictured
Now I give my hope to you
I surrender
I pray in my heart that this world never ends
I see me through your eyes
Living through life flying high

Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life
I offer my love, for you
When my heart was never open
(and my spirit never free)
To the world that you have shown me
But my eyes could not division
All the colours of love and of life ever more

Evermore
(I see me through your eyes)
I see me through your eyes
(Living through life flying high)
Flying high

Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
And live through your love
And live through your life

I see you
I see you.

The bells are ringing! December 16, 2009

XMAS SHOPPING + MSIA

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Shopped till i dropped. Literally. What a killa. these couple of days I went straight home and flung myself on my bed. I actually bought a small number of things but how come they all add up to a few hundredd???? I know very horrible spendthrift dont remind meeee ha.

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So I practically just recovered from my knockout illness and i went out right after i felt like a normal human being who can walk again to meet Duck and choo @ CitySq. Ate their leftovers Fish and Chips lol. Nothing to shop there cus its so huge and boring and empty except I manage to get new cute undies that were a cheap buy yay! hahh we’re past all the immature stuff ah^^ Headed over to Town @313 and shopped like mad. Completed 6six storeys high of shops, including the four storey high F21 madness. wanted to get so many things but in the end choo resisted me which was a good thing. the fact that i already spent on Charles &Keith stuff that costed me 60bucks and I still cant get my hands off the really chic box bag arghhh i didnt buy it and i want it SO badly! Anyone up for xmas gifts??????? Its the one with layers- a bit of leopardprint and dark pink leather on top ahah kidding. Was contemplating like mad between two shoes. in the end got the same with choo Lol. and srrry Quek for taking so much of ur time hehh. o h ya all the pics are with me but i lazy upload.

Afterwards rushed down for my super late muvee at Illuma with siblings and caught Princess and the Frog. Suchan adorable muvee with lovely twists and catchy soundtracks! Had dinner at the street opp. Bugis Junction then headed more for dessert.

HSH afterwards

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MALAYSIA in the morning at ten with the 2 adults only. I kinda think the new custom sucks bigtime. its so long and narrow and makes the traffic much more congested than before which i think kinda defeats the purpose of building it after all. Msia custom is so lenient unlike Spore who make double examinations while the former- none. Odd.

We shopped and spent entirely wholly on one shopping mall. -.- hoursss there. They splurged on me with Clinique skincare items a new concealer and a brand new Renoma wallet, the most expensive wallet i ever had and the total costed an SGD bombnesss!!! didnt get any clothes though cus the clothes are ex over there surprisingly but still awful nonetheless.

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yay Exuberanttt me ^^

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Painted my toe and hand nails finally after years of nail-pureness ha. i find it’s so pretty! normally i look like a bore but now feel so blinged up suddenly. I love my brightyellow clutch wallet! just hopeful to own that other pair of killa heels, that C&K bag, the F21 blue winter dresss and two others from Basement 2 ….. hahaha

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‘Nuff of shopping rampage. I am sooo not lookin forward to post-Xmas and worse…post-New Year Countdown ughhhh kill me after that already.. never mindd i shall not get back on task soon so tra-la-la-la i’mdead!

K my laptop driving me insane. In case u remembered i mentioned previously that my laptop’s dead and was buried somewhere at home untouched. Guess what its finally working, but if you must know how i got it repaired, it’s by putting it in the freezer and leaving it there for 10mins or so and taking it out switching it on and to find amazingly that its completely and miraculously and utterly functioning as per normal again. Yeah you heard it the Freezer compartment. Just now i left it there for half an hour cus i was busy doing my nails and it came out a quarter frozen and i had to wait fr awhile fr it to defrost. Damn awesome right, credits to my bro though. I used to put it on my bed right under the air con but it didn’t work like his freezing idea-.-

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Alright i’mma bounce fer now! I wanna go kbox  sooooooooooooon

A beautiful snap of Amy Adams to end the post ♥

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*squeeezing in anticipation tomorrow

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Good bye folks

7 days of winter December 13, 2009

p a r t y l i k e a r o c k s t a r

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Days seem to pass so swiftlyyyyy! Guess I’ve gotten carried away by some wunderful things and that lovely Xmas spirit.. and ended up with so little time to do anything.. least to say blogging.

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Aight lets see what ive accomplished so far…. Ah one! No completion of assignments yet. Awesome(Y)

Past two weeks were wunderpacked yea. Went out almost everyday with siblings. Had dinner outings and late night lan as usual. Went to a Jap or Korean Restaurant at PS the standard place) for our dinner, afterwhich caught 2012 which was really captivating. then daddy fetched bren mel and me to Parklane. Played 5 hours of lan, L4D2 all the way damn thrilling. Caught twice of New Moon with different groups of ppl. Am totally diggging it!! its so beautiful- the story plot and characters just simply breathtaking./Next few days stayed over at Venus’s bday chalet which was pretty fun and coool. Smth embarrassing happened!! lol srrry V ^^ but probably entertaining for the rest soo hahaha..  Five days later siblings came back from Bangkok and another family outing again. Pops and the rest of us had Manhattan’s Fish Market for dinner which I believe 10% was the cause of my 7day-horror following that day. Shall elaborate on it later, keep the suckiest news last. -.- So they brought me some stufff and made me a happy sister that evening^^ Got me a nice blazer! Went to Parklane again for L4D2. Been L4Ding for the past month already, now practising Versus Mode which is tough if you play against amateurs but its so damn fun & exciting, reckon i’d be able to master it soon ^^ Forgot about the next few days but i rmber I went out a lot. like everysingleday and spent my money unnecessarily AGAIN!!! sighzz Ive no idea how i spent 200 bucks in a week. Think i went bugis for one day and got myself another Blazer. but its nice so nvm laah. The next few days was lan lan movie food.

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SPEAking about food. god. I suffered food poisoning + gastric flu. wtfff kind of combination is that!@%&# that was after the day @ Manhattan’s. but if i rmb clearly i reckon its the food at home! so dumbb, was a hungry ghost at 3 4 am in the morning so I just tore apart the canned food of minced pork paste which looked more like food for dogs than for humans but i just ate it anyway to quench my hunger first. Ended up so terriblyyyyyyyy i had to visit the docs TWICE in 5 days. and got tons of pills to take. AND too much plain porridge. Yeah and i was bedridden for 7 days cus of the relentless diarrhea and vomiting shittiest week i ever had. good thing though, its scared to me death that ive now learned the value of having a good healthy diet. Gotta take fruits aft every meal and eat better. dont wanna end up like me back then ever again.

BUT above all, thank God, for not my newborn iPhone i would’ve died on my bedridden-ed days!!!!!!!!!

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Thank you dearest dadddy for buying the most fabulous biggest bestest phone in the world!!!! for me(L)

Am so in luv with the 3GS!! the speed is insane and everything functions above my expectations of a phone! Just so INtoxicated everyday/

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Last but not least, Salva is currently in dee army! and what a pleasant surprise to find that even before gg thru army, he’s a man after all! Like wah big boy finally, hahahaha kidding yo. You’d do awesome!! Hope everything will be manageable and smooth sailing for you bro(L)

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Excellenttttt

Finally updated after sooo long. Halt here, still got a couple more chapters lol! will update tmr or something

Am a Happy Girl these days…

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SMOOCHES TO MY BABES (K)

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-“…Because you can’t argue with all the fools in the world. It’s easier to let them have their way, then trick them when they’re not paying attention.”

— Christopher Paolini

Sky’s the limit November 22, 2009

L-O-V-E

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I found this in my super old folder which I single-handedly piece and parcel together two years ago!

Finally going out again!!!!!!

Comes with a huge package. Kbox, 2012, one palatial dinner and supper, L4D2; doing it with sexy bros and sis, my evergreen dad, and of course The Great CLAUDIA WONG uh-huhx2 Right, one more thing. Gonna meet up with Jody and co. tmr whom i’ve never seen for what seemed like eternity already?! Probably stayin over at Jody’s house tmr! Lovin’ it ^^

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ME LOVE THE REST OF THE WORLD ‘CEPT ONE(;

update soon bye

Lies that blind for a lifetime. November 21, 2009

Huge Disappointment.

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“What’s worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should’ve healed years ago and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we’ve been and what we’ve overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That’s what we like to think. But that’s not the way it is, is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over and over again.”

— Grey’s Anatomy

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Two words, one picture and a quote to sum up how I feel.

Its time I learned to love the woman inside me. And you know what. I don’t care how long or how much it takes for me to earn what i deserve, i know i would. AND see that’s your problem kid, I’m not the vulnerable needy girl you will lie to anymore. THE GIRL DONT NEED YOU_|_

Heroine November 20, 2009

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Wong, Quek, Choo and Gnoh day it is!

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Planned to catch a muvee, but in the end didnt. Fun fact 1) I was later than the rest! Hehe bummer. Caught up with them @ Vivo and shopped. Fun fact 2) I splurged on a TS Top, and lotsssaaaaaa FOOOOOOD. I had Carl’s Jnr. which practically one time burnt a hole in my pocket already. Afterwhich went starbucks. Then what else… I had Toast box, cakes, and we went to Pomo to eat Mad Jacks. Slacked at the dance studio with Rina while waiting for Ong who didn’t turn up!-,- and Choo to finish an hour and a half of dance; Fun fact 3) is an interesting anecdote by me and gnoh cus it only happened between us. ^^ Fun fact 4) Idk what’s up with funfacts, probably influenced by How I Met Your Mother. But #4) is that I bumped into Jo and his friends at Cathay.

Sad fact 5) I have realized what it is to feel like closing the chapter of a happy day like this with a sad ending. Oh, let nature take its course all over again.

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bye bye